Hola mi Amigo's

Hello everyone, its me again, I am sitting here in my chair relaxing. Just thinking about the events of the day and what I did and what I could have done different. I had class tonight and had another test. I enjoy school but sometimes I think it is to much to handle. I mean between work, my family and the events my kids are involved in that keep me busy and now adding school there is just no time to do the things that I would like to do. I would love to be able to cram just a little more stuff in there but there just is not space. I find it amazing that in our society today that we find it acceptable to max out our time and put all that we can into our days that we don't make time for the greatest gift that God could ever give us, our children. I have three kids and it seems like lately that I get to be with them less and less. It seems like I have blinked and they have grown up so much in the past months that is scary. My oldest is in third grade now and he is so precious. You will not find a more caring and polite boy in this world. I am so proud of him and the little man that he has become thus far. He loves God, he is so respectful of people and takes such good care of his little brother and sister. My little girl holds my heart in the palm of her hand. She is so beautiful and I already know that I am going to have a problem with the boys when she gets older. But any boy that does date her is going to have problems on his hands. She is so strong willed that you cannot tell her anything. When she puts her mind to something there is no stopping her, if she believes in something regardless if she is wrong and can see the truth right in front of her she will find a way to argue and make her claim to her point. Then there is my youngest, "my little buddy". He came at a time in my life that I was needing something. I had just moved home from the service and was having a hard time getting adjusted and had a hard bout with depression. Then when he came along, it seemed to finally break and I was so much better. Although he is the baby, he is the little stud of the family. I guess because he is the baby, we have pretty much spoiled him, and it is my fault since he is the baby, God knows I have to let him do what he wants to do. He thinks he is as big as his brother, and on occasion can get the best of him when they wrestle. He is going to be built like me. He is going to be a "little manmountain". I cant wait to get my boys in the gym with me so we can lift the weights together. I do struggle sometimes with them because my dad left when I was very young and I didn't have a father figure in my life to teach me the things about being a man, and what being a man truly is. I did have men that stepped in and taught me, but I missed out on that bond between a dad and his boys. So now I look forward to teaching my boys about what it means to be a man. Now, going back to what I talked about earlier in the blog about our time shortage. Although time is crunched and life is often hectic, don't allow that to miss out on the greatest gifts that God would ever give you. Make the most of everyday, and don't allow yourself at the end of the day to ask what if. Tomorrow is not promised to no man so make sure the you tell the ones you care about that you love them, and if you have a dream chase it. I heard someone say once "if you shoot for the sky and miss at least you will be a star". God has blessed each and everyone of us so much so make the most of what God has gives us and live this life like there is no tomorrow. Have no regrets and make an impact on someone. But most of all, make time for those you love...........
As far as for my decision that I wrote about in my previous blog. I am still praying and seeking God for an answer. But in between this time of decision, I am going to live my life to the fullest and at the end of the day, I WILL NOT ASK.. WHAT IF?

Whats going on with me now....

So, its been a while since I wrote and alot has been going on and I will update you on a little bit of it. Things at church have been going good. God has been moving and things are going good. Work is fine. There has been alot going on there but nothing that has really effected me any. The only thing that really bothers me is that in the government work system, if you do your job and work hard, you can pretty much guarantee that you will be overlooked on everything. You will be passed up on jobs and promotions, being recognized for awards and accomplishments, but on the other hand. If you are a dirt bag and a slacker, if you dont show up for work and dont do or let alone know your job, then by all means lets advance you and make you management material. I do find it quite amazing that people that are dummer than rocks can advance and make advancements. Maybe one of these days somebody will get in leadership that can somewhat change things a little bit. On the other hand, I am done with it all. I have never let a job or the things that happen at work effect my home life, and this is the first time that this has happened to me. So, I have decided to begin to change my life's direction. I have begun a major job search that encompasses the whole United States, but also, my true desire is to go to medical school and become a doctor. I am still relatively young and that would be an attainable goal and something that I would love to do. So I do have a major choice to make over the next few months. If i do decide to go to school, that would mean me staying here and having the support of my family and friends to help, but if i dont decide to do that, i have had alot of opportunities that are opening up and I would love to move out of the area. I will write back soon and let you know what I decide to do. I will be making a choice very soon, and I will post what I decide to do. if you read this and you have any thoughts about it, let me know, comment and tell me what you think. Thank you and I will be writing back more. Take care.................................Until next time...