September 16, 2008

Good morning everyone, if you are still reading this blog. It has been a long time since I have written on my blog and I apologize for that. There has been alot going on but at the same time nothing, you know what I mean?? Since the last time I posted things have all been going at a pretty much steady pace. I am a year older now, and am still in school studying away like always. I promise to blog more.. I am going to blog once a week for sure, if not more from now on. If anyone out there does read this, I would like to know and if you want to comment please feel free to do so. I would love to hear from people out there that are reading this and see what is going in y'alls world. Anyways........................
My family is doing good, they are all growing so fast. Each one of my kids are starting to become their own person in their own rights. It just seems like yesterday Tyler was a baby, and not hardly this tall, dark young man that I see running thru my house everyday now. My wife is going to school also and staying extremely busy there. She is going to school to be a teacher and I never dreamed she would be as busy as what she has been between school work and regular work and kids and everything else.. it seems we pass each other on the way out saying hi and bye at the same time. Work for me is going good, it is as busy as ever. I am getting ready to take over as boss in my office for a short period of time. My boss and close friend of mine is getting ready to have his hip replaced and I get to take the reins for a few months. I feel sorry for him having to go thru a surgery like this, and he is not even 40yrs old yet. When I had my knee surgery he bought me a bag of milky way candy bars, so I will have to buy him something for his surgery to lift his spirit's a little bit. I enjoy my job very much, but more than that, I enjoy the people in my office. We are a close group, we have our little spats and arguments, but all in all, we are a good group.
Another thing that has been bothering me alot here for the past while has been church. I am really struggling right now, and I don't know how to fix it. I am so lost right now and I seriously feel like I don't know how to fix it for anything. It all stems from some hurt feelings between people and the church and the disagreement with certain key issues about how things have been done and are being done. I have tried to get over it and fix it myself and I can't do it. I am desperately asking you for your prayers for me in this situation. I have not been the spiritual leader in my home that I should be and have been struggling to with the desire to even want to go to church. It seems like I have lost the desire to even go and be in church. I have thought about going somewhere else and trying to start new somewhere else. This is not something I take lightly at all because I feel the matters of my soul are the most important things in this world. It is causing problems between my wife and I, and it is causing me just some personal grief and problems. And it is something that I need to fix ASAP, so I ask for your prayers and I will write more from now.... Thanks.

Good morning everyone. Here we are, another day and another place in time. Life seems to have passed by so fast lately that it is scary. I can't believe that it is almost the end of May already and it seems like I have not done anything this year with my time. Yet I am looking forward to a busy and exciting summer. I am coaching my son's baseball team which I really enjoy doing, I will admit that I am not the best coach, but I do enjoy watching them learn and catch on to the fundamentals of baseball. Now I get informed that I have to go to Maryland in June for the wonderful United States Navy. And this is one of these "I have to be there" kind of trips. I don't have a choice, it's either be there or get in trouble. Then on top of that I have to try and plan my vacation, which I don't know where I am going. I had a plan in mind for July, but I don't know if it will work out :( Besides that everything is going pretty good, just busy as always. I will be writing more.

Good Morning Everyone

Well, today is November 16th in the year of our Lord 2007. I am here at work and it is another wonderful exciting day at the VA. Things are starting to calm down here some, although it never really effected anyone that I directly work with. Maybe it will shake up some of the management and cause people to be fair in their hiring practices and blah, blah, blah like that. Well, I have come to a painstakingly hard decision regarding moving or not. I have decided to stay here in Illinois and go to school. I mean, I have my school paid for and I get money back, really what could be a better deal. I enjoy school, it has been 11 years since I have done any real school work, so it is an adjustment getting back into the swing of things. I plan on getting my bachelor's degree in either Physics or some type of Engineering. I guess I will decide when I grow up. :) But truly, I think growing up is a state of mind, if I choose to stay young and active, then I will. I have let so much time pass by me without enjoying life and making the most of what God has given me. i mean, can you believe it is already a week from Thanksgiving. Where has the year gone? Have you done anything this year that you are proud of, or completed a goal that you set out to do? If not, do it!! I have told myself time and time again that I am going to change my life and start living and enjoy life, but have I done it? HECK YES, for a day or two, then I fall back into the same old routine. So my question is how do you get break out of the same old routine? How do you change it and start something new when it rubs you the wrong way or goes against the grain that you are used to. I mean, don't we all get into the same thing, day in and day out. When you talk to someone and they ask you how it's going or how you are doing. Do you answer " O, just the same old thing". Or the famous one, "Same crap, different day", but really how true is that. Have you ever thought about it? I mean, I don't have the most exciting life, but I do have 3 wonderful children that make the days amazing, but I too often don't pay attention to their amazement of the world, learning new things, and their excitement when they discover something new or are in awe of the sheer beauty and splendor of God's creation. So, I'm not going to say I am going to make a drastic change and just start living life to the fullest, or go from 0-100 in 2.5 seconds. But I am going to make little changes daily, or as soon as I can and life allows it. I am going to live better, love harder, and ............???? Whatever life throws my way or the great things of life I get to endure, they will just make me a better man. My mom always taught me how to be a MAN, in every sense of the word. I hope I can live up to what it really means to be a MAN. I think in our world today, we have alot of males that may be grown up, but don't know what it means to be a MAN, or in all actuality what that truly is..
Well, I will get off my podium now. Hope everyone has a good weekend and live life.

Hola mi Amigo's

Hello everyone, its me again, I am sitting here in my chair relaxing. Just thinking about the events of the day and what I did and what I could have done different. I had class tonight and had another test. I enjoy school but sometimes I think it is to much to handle. I mean between work, my family and the events my kids are involved in that keep me busy and now adding school there is just no time to do the things that I would like to do. I would love to be able to cram just a little more stuff in there but there just is not space. I find it amazing that in our society today that we find it acceptable to max out our time and put all that we can into our days that we don't make time for the greatest gift that God could ever give us, our children. I have three kids and it seems like lately that I get to be with them less and less. It seems like I have blinked and they have grown up so much in the past months that is scary. My oldest is in third grade now and he is so precious. You will not find a more caring and polite boy in this world. I am so proud of him and the little man that he has become thus far. He loves God, he is so respectful of people and takes such good care of his little brother and sister. My little girl holds my heart in the palm of her hand. She is so beautiful and I already know that I am going to have a problem with the boys when she gets older. But any boy that does date her is going to have problems on his hands. She is so strong willed that you cannot tell her anything. When she puts her mind to something there is no stopping her, if she believes in something regardless if she is wrong and can see the truth right in front of her she will find a way to argue and make her claim to her point. Then there is my youngest, "my little buddy". He came at a time in my life that I was needing something. I had just moved home from the service and was having a hard time getting adjusted and had a hard bout with depression. Then when he came along, it seemed to finally break and I was so much better. Although he is the baby, he is the little stud of the family. I guess because he is the baby, we have pretty much spoiled him, and it is my fault since he is the baby, God knows I have to let him do what he wants to do. He thinks he is as big as his brother, and on occasion can get the best of him when they wrestle. He is going to be built like me. He is going to be a "little manmountain". I cant wait to get my boys in the gym with me so we can lift the weights together. I do struggle sometimes with them because my dad left when I was very young and I didn't have a father figure in my life to teach me the things about being a man, and what being a man truly is. I did have men that stepped in and taught me, but I missed out on that bond between a dad and his boys. So now I look forward to teaching my boys about what it means to be a man. Now, going back to what I talked about earlier in the blog about our time shortage. Although time is crunched and life is often hectic, don't allow that to miss out on the greatest gifts that God would ever give you. Make the most of everyday, and don't allow yourself at the end of the day to ask what if. Tomorrow is not promised to no man so make sure the you tell the ones you care about that you love them, and if you have a dream chase it. I heard someone say once "if you shoot for the sky and miss at least you will be a star". God has blessed each and everyone of us so much so make the most of what God has gives us and live this life like there is no tomorrow. Have no regrets and make an impact on someone. But most of all, make time for those you love...........
As far as for my decision that I wrote about in my previous blog. I am still praying and seeking God for an answer. But in between this time of decision, I am going to live my life to the fullest and at the end of the day, I WILL NOT ASK.. WHAT IF?

Whats going on with me now....

So, its been a while since I wrote and alot has been going on and I will update you on a little bit of it. Things at church have been going good. God has been moving and things are going good. Work is fine. There has been alot going on there but nothing that has really effected me any. The only thing that really bothers me is that in the government work system, if you do your job and work hard, you can pretty much guarantee that you will be overlooked on everything. You will be passed up on jobs and promotions, being recognized for awards and accomplishments, but on the other hand. If you are a dirt bag and a slacker, if you dont show up for work and dont do or let alone know your job, then by all means lets advance you and make you management material. I do find it quite amazing that people that are dummer than rocks can advance and make advancements. Maybe one of these days somebody will get in leadership that can somewhat change things a little bit. On the other hand, I am done with it all. I have never let a job or the things that happen at work effect my home life, and this is the first time that this has happened to me. So, I have decided to begin to change my life's direction. I have begun a major job search that encompasses the whole United States, but also, my true desire is to go to medical school and become a doctor. I am still relatively young and that would be an attainable goal and something that I would love to do. So I do have a major choice to make over the next few months. If i do decide to go to school, that would mean me staying here and having the support of my family and friends to help, but if i dont decide to do that, i have had alot of opportunities that are opening up and I would love to move out of the area. I will write back soon and let you know what I decide to do. I will be making a choice very soon, and I will post what I decide to do. if you read this and you have any thoughts about it, let me know, comment and tell me what you think. Thank you and I will be writing back more. Take care.................................Until next time...

Some of my thoughts for the day.......

Sorry it has been a while since my last post. Things at work have not really been wonderful, and daily life has gotten in the way and has brought many challenges as of late. So I thought I would just sit down now and blog about what is going on. I know if you have read my wife's blog lately you know the kind of personal attack that we have been under. Now, I am not a whiner and one to complain, but as my wife said I have taken this personally and am quite offended by what has been said. I do think what hurts the most is the fact that the ones that have done the talking are ones that we have opened our house and our hearts to. All I will say about the whole situation is I forgive them that have done the talking, and you know who you are, but I do also feel extremely sorry for you because you hurt and messed with God's anointed, and the bible says "do not touch mine anointed". The bible states that is a sin and woe unto the person that does this. Now, this has passed me and I have let it go and let God take it and am looking forward to the future and the excitement that I have for what is going to take place. So now on to something else................................................................
I am excited about our trip to Ft. Jackson South Carolina to see a very close friend of mine named Nathan Bracken. He will be graduating from Army bootcamp and we are very proud of him. Despite everything that goes wrong and haywire, God is still good and he is in control. I can't wait to see what happens over the next few months in regards to my families lives and the path God has for us. Have a good day...............................Until next time....

BE WHAT YOU PROFESS TO BE

One of my biggest pet peeves are people who do not live up to what they profess to be. If you profess to be a christian and are against certain worldly things, DO NOT go back on those things just because you are alone or with a group of people you think are your friends and you think it is OK. YOU HAVE NO IDEA THE EFFECTS YOU HAVE ON PEOPLE'S LIVES, AND TO WHAT STANDARD THEY HOLD YOU UP TO. I don't claim to be anything great, but one thing is for sure, you will never, ever see me do something that I talk against....

ABOVE ANYTHING ELSE, HAVE ENOUGH RESPECT FOR YOURSELF AND YOUR GOD TO STAND UP FOR WHAT YOU BELIEVE AND DO NOT CHANGE A BELIEF JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE WITH FRIENDS.. IT MAY NOT SEEM LIKE A BIG DEAL TO YOU, BUT YOUR SOUL AND YOUR INTEGRITY ARE AT STAKE, AND FOR SOME OF YOU..... YOU HAVE LOST RESPECT FROM ME!!!!!!